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Depressing Month

I wrote this long whiny rant this morning, but decided on hitting delete rather than posting it.  The main point of the whole post was, I'm Broke.

 Two years ago I decided to reduce my working hours to part time so I would have more time to focus on my artwork.  Since then my budget has been this facade of of a balancing act.  The truth is in order to get by month to month I've been letting a lot of things in my life slide.  If I known two years ago I'd be worse off today for my choice I'm not so sure I would of made the same one.

It's very frustrating to get some recognition for your work but have none of that translate into any income whatsoever.

 This month it came down to a choice between basic necessities or art supplies.  It's been all rather depressing  and has been part of the reason I haven't made any updates here.  A lot of it is just me feeling sorry for myself.  I was very aware that my choice wasn't going to be easy.  I just didn't realize that it would be so unrelenting.

Thankfully it was only a problem for the month of November and I should have a little more money next month, but I've realized that I really can't keep living so close to the wire.  If I were to have any upset in my life I won't have the resources to deal with it. 


Posted on Sunday, November 20, 2005 at 06:55PM by Registered CommenterHoward | Comments5 Comments

Reader Comments (5)

Just a stranger who wants to wish you courage and comfort, knowing how hard it is to follow one's passions...
November 21, 2005 | Unregistered Commenterunpoet
Coincidentally, I was just blogging about being broke. I used to be a lot better off, I never thought there'd be a day where I would worry about essential needs. I wish you good luck, fellow Vancouverite.
November 26, 2005 | Unregistered Commenterkeni
I want to encourage you too.
Nonetheless, whenever I commit to lots of art making, it always has meant less money. For a little while, I can manage it, but in the long term it is hard.
December 15, 2005 | Unregistered Commentereva
Thanks Eva, Novmeber was pretty hard to get through. I'm not sure December has been all that better, but I'm in a better frame of mind. I've been spending more time sketching and planing new work for the new year. The slow pace of it all is a bit frustrating at times. I still can't imagine doing anything else even when things are going bad and things always seem better once spring is on the way.
December 16, 2005 | Registered CommenterHoward
I found your website through the Squarespace site. I read your post and can completely identify. I've been a "self-employed" artist since Sept 2004, when the company I worked for folded. I was doing quite well until the early Fall when work has just trickled in. I find when I'm paralysed in fair, I am also immobilized in my creativity. I wish you wonderful success! Things will turn around for you! They always do, don't they?
December 19, 2005 | Unregistered Commentershawn

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